Seamore died this evening from cancer. He was such a kind person and he will be missed.

im sure he is in a better place now.

Today has been one of the worst days I have had in a VERY long time.

Lets start off with this morning shall we?

So this morning I wake up and reach over to my bedside table for my iphone I then proceed to turn the sheets on my bed into a cave and crawl in and check for messages on my phone. I finnish checking my phone and attempt to fall back asleep. by now its around 10:23 am. Yeah I know im a lazy thing. So then the phone rings and my mom answers.....you know how when someone answers the phone sometimes you can just tell that the news is never good? yeah, well, it wasn't. my mom's first cousins husbands dad who is like a great uncle to me. lets call him seamore, is in the hospital dying. I was laying down in bed with tears in my eyes after I have heard about a good half of my moms conversation. no one likes death at all, its the saddest thing in the world. its sadness hits me exspecially hard because of my anxiety and the fact that 4 close family members have all passed away from the time I was 13 to now,and the inability to keep myself from crying. so I get out of bed and go downstairs to the main floor of my house and see my mom standing in the kitchen with the phone to her ear. she didn't see me until I poked her and started crying. so I calmed down and ate breakfast and my mom tells me that seamore would either die today or tommorow. again I start to cry. so me, my mom and my dad go to the hospital to visit seamore around 12 pm. my moms first cousin and her husband had 4 kids all girls. they are 27, 26, 22, and 18. plus her husbands brother and his wife and Gloria. seamores wife. seamore is 92 by the way. so seamore has no idea who we are but he can still talk but it sounds more like gibberish. we had to put on gloves and surgical gowns just in case when we saw him. so we spend all day at the hospital and then leave around 4pm. I ask my dad how long until seamore goes and he said sometime this week like tuesday or wendsday. .

Seamore is dying of cancer. they have stopped giving him treatment and they have stopped all of his medications.


Today is probably the last time im going to see him.... I will miss him very much.

Eugh sorry for the lack of updates.....

So life has been very good and My bird Paulie is all better, singing, chirping,etc.

I ordered a Bleach doujinshi of the Pairing kirahina (izuru kira and hinamori momo) its a tiny book. like 12 pages. Its izuru and he is walking around when he sees momo sitting on a bench he sits next to her and her head plops down on his shoulder because she is asleep. He then puts his arms around her and kisses her forehead and thats it. Its pretty adorable but very short.

So yay! I had 3 BIG projects due in 3 of my classes. The first one was a paper, the second one was a movie presentation, and the third was a research project. The movie presentation was graded that day I presented. I looked to see what I got and it said 68/100.........no, that couldn't be right. So I looked again and scanned that entire sheet of paper. 168/200 FINAL GRADE. A solid B. Thank god. So then I turned in my paper and my research project. A on the research project and a high B on the paper.


WOOT! I only have 2 classes now!! 1 on each day of the week!!

Now next week im going to have a MRI (big huge x ray machine) of my brain because I haven't had one in 2 years.



Wheres the snow????!!!!

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